I’m waking up every day with sore eyes, sore throat, and general malaise. I have meetings every day, too. I’m not saying the two things are connected. But both make me feel like whining.

On the other hand, I still haven’t gotten back to my healthy habits, so I sort of feel like it might be my own fault.

This is a question that comes up for me a lot. I hear about someone’s back problems and I think, Did they exercise enough? I hear a touching story about diabetes and I wonder what their eating habits were like. It has become so clear to me that our American way of eating, drinking, sleeping, and moving leads to health problems that it’s hard for me not to think that people with health problems have done it to themselves.

Even if it’s me?

I’ve been eating tacos, pizza, hot dogs, ice cream… I’ve been doing my 30 minutes of Wii Fit but no strength training, no challenging cardio. I haven’t been sleeping enough.

So is it my fault that I have allergies? Or whatever is making me feel poorly?

Maybe so. If I don’t make the changes I should, how will I know whether I was the one causing the indisposition? I know that breast cancer is much less common in women who exercise and eat fresh produce, don’t drink alcohol, and don’t smoke. Maybe sore eyes are more common among women who work through their scheduled exercise breaks and take ice cream breaks instead.

Maybe if I were being healthy instead of ordinary I would be waking up feeling great every day. I won’t know unless I get back on track with those healthy habits.

As for other people’s health issues, I’ll still wonder. But I know that, no matter how long I’ve been practicing my good habits, disruption of my habits and routines makes it hard to stay on track… and to get back, too. It’s hard to do the right things.