I’ve been a disciplined person for much of my life… much of the time. I’d say that the tension between discipline and liberty has been an important feature of my adult life. But I think I’ve largely become undisciplined recently.

I don’t have to take care of anyone any more and I can choose to spend my whole weekend knitting while watching Selfie. What’s more, I actually do that.

But I might miss the benefits of discipline a little bit.

Granted, I have lost 80 pounds. I have built a business. I’ve taken part in leadership in my community. I put make up on at least half the time.

But I rarely do anything I don’t want to. And I do things that I feel like doing, even when I know they’re not the best choices for my future.

So I think maybe “discipline” will be my Word of the Year for 2018.

It seems like a strange choice for me, frankly. I work hard and constantly strive to improve my self and my life. I seek to lead a joyful and holy life. I have been developing and strengthening good habits like nobody’s business for years now.

So, when it comes time to buy the 2018 planners (yes, there is a time for that), I begin to think about my goals, resolutions, and plans for the upcoming year. My Word of the Year is often the first step. I ponder the possibilities at the back of my mind between Thanksgiving and Christmas and then do serious thinking and planning between Christmas and New Year’s.

For 2018, I have already determined my fitness and financial goals. Both will require discipline. So I guess this is the right Word of the Year for me in 2018.