I am working too much. I am making this a protected post, since really I am just talking to myself here — I mean, even more than usual. So, if you are reading this and thinking that I am being indiscreet, I’m really not.

The thing is, I am simply working too much. I need to quit that. I am working at my full-time job more than 40 hours a week, not because anyone asked me to or pays me to, but just because I start working early in the morning and keep going till I have to do something else. This is stupid, and I need to quit it. It is true that I have a lot of work to do for the store, but I am the only one who really cares when it gets done, and there are no real benefits to me or to my family in my doing that much work.

Then I am working at my business too much. I took this on at a time when I needed a job that I could do for no more than 10 hours a week, and at which I could earn a couple hundred a month. The first month went just as it should have, and I earned a lot more than I expected. The second month was slow, and I stepped up my time investment to get things rolling again, and now I am spending 15 or 20 hours a week, which is not what I had planned. I need to quit that, too.

Part of it is set up in the business. I work as an independent consultant,and can set my own goals, but the Central Office has a bunch of rewards they offer us. To get all the rewards, you need to be a full-time consultant, not a quarter-time one like me. So, for November, I have the little goal of holding two shows to get a prize from next spring’s new product. I’ve met that goal, and earned my couple hundred dollars. But I also could do $1500 in sales for a larger incentive, and $3000 in sales for all the new product, and I find myself working toward those goals almost automatically. I also can, if I sell another piece of cookware by December 8, get a free stir-fry pan, and I sometimes find myself fretting over that, and I can have another $100 in free product if I turn in 5 more shows in that time… There are always prizes to win, and it is easy to get distracted by them from the fact that what I needed was a 10 hour a week job that would cover #1 son’s tuition payments.

Meanwhile, I am not getting the housework done or feeding my family properly or getting in that essential 30 minutes of exercise every day, let alone my arts and crafts, which are important to me, or just enjoying my life. It is as though I am permanently in Back to School mode.

So I am writing this so that I can come back sometimes and see it, and remember not to work so much.