It has been a hectic week.

Last Sunday I had three meetings at church. I took myself to lunch in a break between two of them, and came back to sit on a bench with this peaceful view. I got my week’s meetings and deadlines organized and was feeling fairly sanguine. I told myself that I had an exciting week ahead, that I had been engaged in interesting work and taking pleasure in travel and family time, that there were interesting prospects on the horizon and that I simply had to have the right attitude toward things to see my schedule in a positive light.

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I spent just about 66 hours at the computer this week, starting as soon as I got home from that third meeting on Sunday. Those are the computer hours; the total doesn’t show the meetings. There were several phone meetings, but also a couple of physical meetings. At one, a doctor said he saw no point in any marketing investments besides the website and charitable sponsorships. I think he’s probably right. At another, a marketing exec rattled off acronyms and jargon with scarcely an ordinary word in it. I wrote down the most frequent buzzwords, figuring I could make sure her content included them. I didn’t have much to do in either meeting, but one was followed by lunch with Janalisa and the other by some long-overdue grocery shopping. I had other breaks from the computer — on Wednesday I met my dad for breakfast, had choir and waited in the parking lot for the church deer to move, and on Friday I had lunch with #1 daughter and a haircut — but my workdays lasted 11 or 12 hours.

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11 or 12 hour workdays still leave eight hours for sleep and four for other things, and most days included 30 minutes of Wii fit and 30 minutes of reading plus meals and a shower and some family time. That’s not enough to get me even to orange on Fitbit let alone green.

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It’s not enough non-work time for a clean house or time enjoying my garden or connecting with my husband. It’s not enough work time to finish my to-do list, either.

So here it is Sunday again and I have to leave for church shortly, still feeling behind. Also not feeling well.

I think that this is not a sustainable pace for me. Classes start in a week, the HGP starts the following week. I think I am going to recommit to the schedule I worked out for myself. I am going to give myself a 40 hour workweek this week, get to orange on Fitbit every day, sleep 8 hours every night, track my meals and make sure that I’m eating right. I’m going to check my email three times a day, not every time it makes a noise. I’m going to see what happens if I do that.

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Maybe next Sunday I will feel better.