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Here’s a picture from the last walk I went on, several days ago now. Sigh.

The interview went well. Not immediately, mind you, because I was late. This is because I had a lot of work to do before I left, and then I turned the wrong way and got a bit lost. I was glad to have my cell phone with me, so I could call and claim that I was lost, not late.

Once there, however, I was fortunate. The regional director gave me a tour of the site which afforded me the opportunity to ask perceptive questions and demonstrate that I was familiar with all their materials.Then we had one of those nice interviews which is more like a conversation between new friends. I like her very much. As I was on my way out, she asked my opinion of the marketing piece she was working on, and I had the opportunity to answer in a way that — whether it was helpful to her or not — showed that I know my stuff when it comes to that kind of question, and that I can give honest feedback in a pleasant and respectful way, which is always good in a management position.

I think they’ll offer me the job. I don’t know if I’ll take it. Apart from the whole question of how hard it was to fit the interview into my workday, so maybe I shouldn’t really be interviewing, there are a couple of negatives. One is that I’d be responsible not only for the local site, which is about 3 minutes from my house, but also for the one in the next county to the north.

Alert readers who never miss a day and have total recall will be thinking that most of my job opportunities have been in the county to the north. They are having a growth spurt. It may well be that commuting would be a feature of my life if I found a salaried job. Would the stress of commuting negate the relaxing effect of having a salary?

It is also a fairly high-powered job. I seriously doubt that I could combine it with my freelance work. It’s marketing and admin, not direct service provision. There is a strong element of sales. I might enjoy it, but I am not at all sure that I would.

They had me come home and take a personality inventory online. This was interesting. I have by now done some online applications, and many of them have a section where you answer questions like “Agree or disagree: sometimes I just want to take a hatchet to difficult coworkers.” I figured it would be one of those. It was not. It was a test in which you rank things from best to worst. The interesting thing about it, for me, was that the things being ranked were not comparable at all.

The practice set had the following items: nuclear war, cold coffee, a friendly greeting, an incorrect answer, a broken TV set. Then there were five or six real sets with about 18 items in each. They had you rank the relative worth of things like a father-in-law, a working refrigerator, and a mother’s love for her child. Then there was one with statements like, “My work is meaningless” and “The better I understand my place in the universe, the better I am at my work.”

I think it would have been fun to discuss. However, it was timed. We were told it should take 20-40 minutes, but I did it in 11. I think this is because I read very fast, but they may think I am a light-minded individual who doesn’t think deeply before saying that someone who loves to kill people is worse than someone who completely destroys all food crops.

They are having me back this morning to meet the rest of the staff. How fortunate that #2 daughter helped me buy two suits! Going back in the same thing would really have made it look like that was my interview suit, which of course it was, and not as though I were the kind of individual who wears suits.

Unless my personality test revealed something horrible about me (okay, I admit it, I had a very hard time putting “a love of justice” above “correct grammar,” and I’m not completely sure that I did so), we will probably have a conversation about salary. My plan at the moment is to ask to think about it over the weekend.

I have of course been thinking about how much they’d have to offer for it to be worthwhile I am a little bit shocked at how much higher this number is, now that I have been a computer guy for while, than it was when I applied for this position back in April.

I told the women in my afternoon class about the interview, and one said, “If you’ve got a job in this uncertain economy, you should keep it.”

“I don’t have a job,” I assured her.

Several told me that with the economy as uncertain as it is, I should take the job. One told me that I should check back on the other things I’ve applied for and see whether they are also beginning to interview.

After the interview, I dropped by the Computer Guy’s office. I came home after that, dissected the whole thing over lunch with #1 daughter, did the online test the company asked for, and then did my four hours for the big client, three hours of assorted music practice and classes at the church, and then another hour for another of my clients.

After this morning’s callback, I need to pick up a key from another client. Then I have the four hours for the big client, and an afternoon deadline, and an online meeting about the book audition. Tomorrow I have four more hours, of course, plus lunch with That Man, the Poster Queen, and The Empress, and then I’m singing at a funeral, and #2 daughter will come down. I have a couple more hours to do for the Computer Guy before Monday, but there is always 5:30 Monday morning, which may still come to “before Monday” for him, though maybe not.

Where do I get the idea that I can fit a fulltime job into my life as it currently stands?

And that is of course the thing. If I take this job, I don’t also get to keep my current life. Which as you know I really like a lot.

On the other hand, if I take it, I might also like what happens then. It might be an exciting job with security.